The Journey Begins
Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton
For the last few years, I have been a wondering soul of sorts. My body hasn’t traveled far, but my mind has been in search of happiness, in search of me. My life was so wrapped up in being the perfect mom, maintaining the perfect home and being the perfect wife. In the burrito wrap of labels I was attempting to achieve, I lost me somewhere in the middle. Shit eventually hit the fan with my marriage in the most traumatic of ways, and I was left to support and raise 3 kids by myself. Reality was, I was so sheltered in my marriage and my quest of perfection that I lacked really growing up in a lot of ways. I had no career, no money saved up and had never lived on my own without another adult to turn to.
Something beautiful happened almost instantaneously when I cut the ties to my marriage. I finally started searching for me. I let go of perfectionism and the idea that I had to act a certain way, think a certain way and follow all these social norms that were considered to be a good whatever. It was hard not having a label and our lives went through a lot of changes during that time. It amazes me that when multiple changes happen in a short time that it can feel like years.
I met a man 7 years my elder, who I fell in love with. He accepted me for who I was and even though I had some baggage, he was willing to not only walk alongside me, but help me work through that baggage. We are now happily married, living in the trailerhood with the 3 kids, dog, cat, snake and chameleon.
Happiness and joy finds you when you finally let go of all the expectations of society and just be you.Welcome to my journey in the trailerhood.