Jesus isn’t a joint

Everywhere you look words spew of Jesus this and Jesus that. I’m so sick of Facebook at this point. I have friends that love to share nothing but Jesus stuff yet if you really look at their lives you don’t SEE him. They want to talk about the love of Jesus, but no one wants […]

Happy Birthday Big Bear!

Happy birthday to my husband, love of my life, the Big Bear! He can be cold as ice, a big old teddy and a giant asshole all in the same day if you talk to him long enough. It all depends on how people treat him. He tends to treat people how they treat him, […]

I need more hours please

Another 34 hours down, and my husbands truck is rolling again. Some families live paycheck to paycheck, but in this house we live by the 34. 😂 The 34 is when my husband rolls in for his 34 hour break before he has to head out for another 6 days or so. Reality check: we […]

I was raped.

I was the victim of rape many, many years ago. I felt ashamed, dirty, disgusting, embarrassed, violated, angry and hurt. I went through a lot of struggles with body image, which I honestly still deal with today. Rape changes a person for life. It does. Not all in the same way. We all handle it […]

Dream Date

Fellow blogger friend asked me what my dream date would be and that is a complicated question being married to a truck driver. See, we have never really done anything outside of dinner. I mean we’ve been to a car show and gone on bike rides. While most couples have been to concerts and movies, […]

Fighting Disconnection….

It’s hard not shutting down when you’re exhausted. The brain and the heart are not on the same wave length and life is wonky and all you want to do is disconnect from everyone and everything and you know you can’t do that. I’m sicker than people know, and work harder than I get credit […]

Lady chat!

Lady chat!

Ladies, short ramble here. Do your monthly self checks. If you find a lump in your bump and your under the reccomended age for a mamo, talk to your doc. Get your girls checked yearly. Mamograms don’t hurt as bad that people like to claim. What hurts is biopsies, and chemo. What hurts is watching […]

Screw being a better wife, men need to step the F up!

I have a bone to pick with the Internet, and Christian blogs etc. Across the web you will find how to be a better wife, how to keep your man, wives stop doing this, how to encourage him that. I’m calling some bullshit. It’s time for men to start stepping up their game a bit. […]

Another week bites the dust & another weekend down.

Work has been insane. I’ve been working a lot of overtime, and not sleeping much. Big bear and I seem to be running different schedules more than I like, but that’s life.He rolled in on Saturday early afternoons. Some friends of his popped in and had some cocktails while I ran errands. We grilled and […]

A day in the life of a night custodian….

A friend of mine were talking about how most people have no idea what a night custodian does per some conversations we have had with people. Now, rather than go into the odd nights with activities, plays, conferences and games where we have to clean up, set up and take town on top of our […]

Daily Routine & How I Got My Life In Order

Life used to be beyond overwhelming. Like to the point where I would take it out on my husband and was getting resentful of HIM. He would ask me to do things for him, which in all fairness, he couldn’t do all the things because he was on the road, but I was also at […]

Tribe

Question- Is your tribe for all days, or just sunny days? Life happens and some days suck. There are times my tribe has had to shake me and aske me “what the hell are you doing Ceejay?” I get mad and eventually see the light, and apologize and it is what it is. Equivalent to […]

Why I became a minimalist

I’m asked frequently why I became a minimalist. The long and short probably isn’t what you’re thinking. Never is, right? I hate gifts. Gifts- anything people purchase for you with their money without intent of being paid back. Hate is a strong word, and I don’t use it lightly. Gifts and materialism is what turned […]

I didn’t die, but I’m P/O

I did it. I went back to work successfully, and didn’t die. Yay, for not dying, although my everything hurts. This week has been crazy insane. I managed to cook a bunch of freezer meals that would provide lunches and dinners for the family. I prepared lesson plans with no help to a cat that […]

Weekend Ramblings

The weekend comes and goes by so fast here in the trailerhood. Prior to Big Bear coming in I did 4 loads of laundry, scrubbed bathrooms, scrubbed bedroom, cleaned the refrigerator, dealt with devil spawn, ran daughter to work, talked to grandma, talked to husband, talked to a drunk man, broke up sibling fight, cleaned […]

Depression isn’t a sin

Depression isn’t this giant sin that society likes to make all hush, hush and sweep it under the rug like it’s a huge sin that should be some forbidden unspoken thing. In fact, depression is a real thing that has some chemicals in the brain get all fizzed up and it really needs a little […]

Gasp! Cat people aren’t heartless….

I’m NOT a dog person… like at all. There, I said it. My HUSBAND is a dog person. I liked HIS pit bull. Loved her even. Loved her like she was my own. I still miss her like crazy today. Generally, I like other people’s dogs. You know other people who take care of the […]

I need a hat, and a dress, and some exotic place or a mountain.

I need a hat, and a dress, and some exotic place or a mountain.

Summer has been a season of challenge and growth for me. Lots of growth. I have been working my way back through serious physical therapy, medication and diet. I have been a by-stander to normal summer activities of water play, parks, vacations, road trips, beaches, and amusment parks. This summer hasn’t been a comlete waste […]

Big A$$ Possitive

Well… now that I have your attention we are not pregnant, so you can remove that thought. I repeat- NO baby for the trailerhood family, BUT we have super positive news! I am going back to work!! I did it! I got clearance and am returning to work this next week! I am so excited, […]

Little things help in big ways..

Little things help in big ways..

Tools that I have used to get my life back after a major health crisis.